after almost a month of not thinking about him, a few days back i saw him. and the memories start creeping back to me, haunting in my sleep. yesterday i was unfortunate enough to be seeing him.
don't get your hopes too high.
today i think i experienced the worst feeling yet. i thought i should just give another go on it, after talking to my friend. even if we didn't come up with any solution to this predicament i'm going through. its not easy to decide what is the best thing to do. if i'd go for it, it would let to a bigger dissapointment. if i didn't, it would lead to nothing, and it means i'm giving up way too early. after hours of thinking, i saw a sign. literally.
now what should i do?
i can see that he has someone already. someone i know. actually i had seen it coming before. they do have the chemistry. onlookers like me can see it clearly. now, should i cry my hearts out, or should i just let it go and prepare for my exam?
option a, to cry: makes you feel better, releases your anger towards the hurtful truth. but it would waste my bodily fluids.
option b, to feel nothing: its never that easy to just do that. i'm a woman. i'm born emotional. and i'm never good at letting go of the past.
the only thing i can say right now is... i will just try to live life as normal. when it is time to cry, i'll cry. when it is time to forget, i'll do just that.
why is love so hard to come by?
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