waw dah lama kita tak bersua ya?

assalamualaikum, peace be upon you my sisters and brothers. ecehh

new update: i'm now doing my clinical works in Bandung, heyyy. got my first patient for removable denture today. my first time for everything. it is quite stressful due to many factors, direct and indirect. tapi nampak macam cerah je masa depan ni, so i'm not going to give up just yet. *eventhough i went home early today, a sign of giving up* i needed the time out, so that i can bounce back up again tomorrow, insyaAllah. thank goodness even though my doctor and senior don't think it's an easy case to handle, but the patient trusts in me and that's all that matters, actually. yeah, there were moments when i pictured myself just crying it out while talking to my mom, but i'm not going to do that just yet. don't want my mum to feel bad about it. *since i'd once said to my mom, this is her choice, not mine (yes i felt bad saying that)* i know momma's choice is the best, insyaAllah. takpe, dunia belum berakhir. buat apa nak risau. yang penting buat mak rasa gembira dapat pahala bro, one step closer to heaven woot2. which brings us to the second topic

gua homesick broooo. haha. its going to be my first time untuk 3 bulan straight tak balik rumah rasanya. tambah dengan stress, and my father's 60th birthday coming soon, it hurts so much not to be home and see my family. time-time ni lah rasa cam "oh kan best kalau belajar kat malaysia, dekat dengan rumah sikit" dah nina, enough is enough. dah nak masuk 4 tahun kat luar negara, takkan tak dapat terima hakikat lagi yang awak bukan belajar kat malaysia. tinggal setahun lebih je lagi, so shut up, tighten up, and go all out. dulu nak sangat menjelajah kan? kuikuikui.

last update: please please please try to watch walking dead, the new series about world infested by zombies and this group of people trying to survive from being eaten/bitten alive. the 2nd season just started. and the 1st season is only of 6 episodes. its a good show. or i might be too obsessed with the zombie concept due to this one experience of playing Left for Dead, sampai tak nak balik rumah. haha. noob nina.

ok la tu je. curhat again later. dedaa.

a blogger and a new (last!) block in 6th semester

today, on the way to my campus today for a cancelled class *huhh*, i saw a banner about some book fair going on. there's also going to be a movie review and music carnival as well from 2nd - 5th of May '11. another feature that excites me is there's going to be a seminar from my favourite blogger-turned-author/comedian, Raditya Dika, on 4th of May. he's an Indonesian who writes about his day-to-day mis-adventures and quirky incidences. i haven't being following him for a long time, but I've read most of his books. really loved the way he writes, very descriptive and alive. i could replay all the scenes in my head vividly, as i read his books, chapter by chapter. so yeah, i'm excited to see him, if i'm given the chance.

next week there's one final exam, and also the start of a new block on public health. yukk. i don't like the subject. very boring and its about ethics. i'm an ethical person, mind you, but these are things that we've already learned throughout life. and another thing that made me wince was that during the first lecture, the doctor told us to make a choice: between doing masters degree on what you love, or, something that ensures you of having a lot of patients. i know she's only thinking about our future, but i don't want to make money for things that i'm not passionate about. that's against my principles. you don't want to end up being old and unhappy with what you're doing every day. and god forbids, feeling regretful. and hey, i thought we were learning about ethics. is it ethical to be money-minded instead of being true to yourself? think think.

its always half full to me.

Its already been 5 semester since i started my studies in Degree in Dental Surgery in Universitas Padjadjaran, Bandung. And unfortunately for me, i'm only halfway through. haha. Well nothing good in life comes easy, people. Fortunately, i still find the motivation to wake up every morning (it never fails to be freezing cold everytime even without the fan on) and open my eyes after 4-5hours of sleep(since Subuh comes early here, as early as 4am) plus battling the crazy traffic of Indonesia while walking safely to my faculty. Ok2 nuff about my life in Bandung, let's talk about my 3weeks holiday in Malaysia (including 2 days in Singapore).

I.FREAKIN.LOVE.EVERY.SECOND.OF.IT! :D

this is going to be random. no specific order.

its been ages, ey?

I'd only left the internet for few weeks, but it looks as if I'd missed a year's progression. haha.
and, I can see that i'd gained more followers, thank you :)

so..deactivated my Facebook account, only for a while, until i feel comfortable enough to go on it again.Trust me when I say that I don't have a specific reason for doing it. Don't worry, I actually felt liberated. In order to keep up with the rest of the world (since I don't own any TV nor do I go online that often), I tweet. Quite awesome, short and simple.

lets talk about hopes and dreams for year 2011.. my list goes like this:
1. be friendlier and more approachable. *gonna say hi to people and think of things to talk about*
2. less food more moving around *exercise is a strange word*
3. complete the Quran atleast twice per year. *just a sidenote: it's much more worthwhile if you also read the translation after every recitation, don't worry if you're a bit slow to finish it, its not how much you do it, its how sincere you are*
4. spend money more wisely *gonna follow ally's great tips and gonna be a millionaire soon! insyaAllah :D*
5. be diligent, work efficiently and effectively. give the best in assignments and duties.

#6 (extra from what i wrote in twitter): worry not of what people say and just go for my dreams. pendek kata, tebalkan muka, chin up, and be brave. Nina, i feel positive about this :)

black dots and white spirals

.malukecilhatikecewahampalemah.

most nights, I stare blankly at the dark sky of  a ceiling and questioned myself: 

what am I doing here, all alone, far away from my loved ones? why do I choose to be here. 

why can't I be near to them. why should I be living on my own, in a room, with nothing but mere silence as a friend. 

and then, my heart hears a whisper: why not? U've always wanted freedom, and now's the chance. 

Hmm. I may look like an independent strong woman who everybody can rely on, but sincerely, I am in need of support too. Not many understand this.

a letter to juliet

*Imagine I'm in verona, sitting on a bench, in front of Juliet's balcony*

dear Juliet,

I know you're just a fictitious character created by William Shakespeare, yet...

lain dari yang lain

got this list from syam who got this from Datin Tiara Jacquelina. a'ah kan syam.. asal xde visiting Mekah n getting married in the list? so dis is my result:

1. Started your own blog

2. Slept under the stars

3. Played in a band(aduh nggak bisa. udah dicoba tapi kok bunyinya nggak masuk ya..)
4. Visited Hawaii and danced on a lava cliff with the roar of the Pacific below
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain(bukit byk.mountain..ermm)
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo(tidak. suare ku tidak mantap)

11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea( i think so but i cannot remember when)
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

15. Adopted a child(i want toooo!)
16. Had food poisoning

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight

22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill to avoid taking the kids to school(i dont have kids yet, but i always pull a sickie :P)
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping(waktu kecik2 :p)
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse in a bucket of water 

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run in softball and rounders
32. Been on a cruise

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors(still waiting for the right time padahal da ade kat sini kot)

35. Seen an Amish community(ooo that would be interesting!)
36. Taught yourself a new language(indonesia boleh? i learned it through the art of trading and bargaining)
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant(think so.. tak igt sgt)
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business(kejap je kot)
58. Taken a martial arts class(taebo counts rite?)
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason [xpernah dpt bunga :'( ]
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year's Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox 

89. Saved someone’s life 

90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous outside of Malaysia
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

so i got 39. but yeah. the list is quite unrealisitic i might say. most of the things to do can only be done if u have loads of money. consider the less unfortunate lah.  to people out there who feel like having an adventure, i suggest you go out from ur room, and walk with ur instinct, not with ur head. u'll discover places and things in no time. and u dont really have to hop on a plane to have an adventure. there are lots of interesting stuff going on in places that we always neglect. and remember to follow ur instincts, dont hold urself back!

In the name of Allah, the Beneficient, the Merciful

Oh Allah, I need Your guidance.

"He whom Allah guides, no one can misguides him,
and whoever Allah misguides, no one can guide him"

Warning: This is a "curhat" session. So please, don't expect anything knowledgable in return.

topic #1: lately, i've been haunted by this one thing: Purpose.
What is the purpose of life?
What is my purpose for becoming a dentistry student?
What is my life purpose?
Why should there be a purpose?

according to www.answers.com, purpose can be defined as "the object toward which one strives or for which something exists; an aim or a goal". Still, i don't quite get it.

i should not just ask, i should try answering it, right?

topic #2: okay. we obviously hear this quote too much;"a friend in need is a friend indeed". Well, yours truly, have been living her life following those simple quote. This is because, yours truly, is so innocent and charmingly sweet, she thought, if you do something to others, you will get the same treatment in return. Wrong! A friend, is not only there to be your 'shoulder to cry on'. But, he/she is also there to share your happiness too. Don't go crying or complaining, or looking for pity to someone, if you'll just end up ditching them whenever you feel like it. No, thank you, please.

topic #3: i've just finished watching grey's anatomy finale season. The ending was superb. Yet, i didn't quite enjoy it. I loathe it actually. But, it made me think. Here's what Meredith said during those last few scenes..

"Make a plan, Set a goal, Work toward it, But every now and then, Look around, Drink it in, Cause this is it.. It might all be gone tomorrow.."

I definitely have many things to do before it all comes to an end. And when i'm very far away from my comfort zone in SJ, i realized, that i should absorb every moment, every memory there is, do something and be someone. And most importantly, do my best and strive for excellence, cause there is no one that can determine our fate except Allah SWT and ourselves. Not forgetting, seize the chance when there is one. Don't delay or think too much. Regret is never an easy thing to swallow,yes? huhu.

crapping session ends now. thank you for your time. salaam.

pick-me-up

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."

Walt Emerson

p.s:aku cinta kau lah walt emerson.

ak suke kau seadanya!

sedeh sedeh bile bkak ajl td. all that went thru my mind was.. aizat, why r u so kurus?? i admit, u do look good..and kasep! but still, i always had been a fan of u ever since u entered AF. gemok2 gedempol cmtu pn ak suke ok.. coz u r proving to evry1, that good voice dont always come with good looks. n ppl still voted for u. ok..maybe not to till the final, but hey, don't u see, u still got the ability to attract fans and also wowed the judges.

fine, if u say that u've slimmed down in order to hv better stamina n be healthy. if its the case, i'm glad. but if it is because it is the only way to mark ur presence in the entertainment biz, then sedeh..sedeh sekali..

xpe la. janji kau nyanyi sedap sekali mlm td. ak akan bygkan serenade itu utk ak~ lagu kita..echeh

oh minta maaf.. :)

kpd rakan2ku di malaysia.. i ask for ur forgiveness in advance. i'm not coming back home on 23rd january..cos i'm coming back home pd 16th jan bersamaan Jumaat bersamaan hari ni gak! agaggaga... saje nk bg hati korg resah mnunggu kepulgn sy. n berjaya rsenye.. ehehe.. so Al, anda da ade teman jln2 mulai esk hari.. Maliq, u'll get ur wallet earlier than expected..ak tau kau guling2 menahan sbr utk dptknnye.. ehehe.. Shera, i'll be closer to u.. just hope u can be back home soon too, rinduuu.. =) Peeja n Batch..i think u know.so just wait patiently..eheh..Mimi..anda dimane?da lame nggak contact. Jaja n Azzy, ye wajib kua lepak ngan korg. Izzati,Enon,Tika..sy hrp kite jadik nk jmpe!!kangen banget nih.. to others lg yg xdpt nk disebutkn..jumpe sy seblom terlmbt.. n yg teramat sy rindu sbb teramat lame x jumpe:anak2 kazen ( aisyah, salihin, hazeeq, syahmi, hazeem, arissa, n intan asmara!) sy akn pakse parents sy utk bwk lwt kamu. wuuu. ok that's it... doakn perjlnn selamat n lancar.. Aminn.. YEAY NK BLK!

i'm back! (sile bace noran & l.o.c.a.l.o.c.a)

slm.. ok, for u guys who didnt knew, i just finished my finals last monday, but i still wasn't ready to blog yet..so here i am today posting sumtg..hehe.. tgh2 cek2 my blog, tetbe came across new names kat chatbox.. noran & l.o.ca.l.o.c.a(wah sshnye nme.haha). before i elaborate further, let me say "WELCOME!!".. xsangke ade gak org other than my frens yg sudi bace my blog. thenkiu2.. n to both of u,(n future readers) echehh, i jz wished u guys left ur url so dat i can trace u back..o nvm, google sudeh..haha..

mau cerita psl hr2 yg lepas..

finals was ok.. not so nightmarish as i've thot..
but.......anatomy n histo tlalu ganas weh. smpi xtau nk jwb ape.hny mampu bce doa twkl je sebaik melangkah keluar dr xm..tp slh sndri gak since i read it at the 11th hour.mmg cr nahas. yg subjects len je tolerable. Alhamdulillah..hrp2 result bagus2 belaka la..

kemudian, we had a suprise bday party for the january girls yesterday. tp let me tell u abt the one on 10th january first. my fren, Diyana, turned 19 on 11th.. pny la ssh nk plan bday die since it fell on xm week..11 pm, all the girls tgu dpn blk die. Ketuk2 pintu konon tny psl xm, then tbe2 sme menjerit n sang happy birthday.. terkejut gle die time tuh..haha..tp yg best tuh, die dapat gitar as her bday present..best kan? die mmg NAK SANGAT gitar tuh. ble Miza(rumet die) hand over gitar tuh, pny la excited smpi die gi kejar miza ke pantry..aduh..br kasik gitar da gitu..haha. enough of that. semlm plak, ktorg sambut bday for all the jan girls. we made pasta, sandwich, n jelly.. teddy( kwn miza) brought donuts. niro n githa got the bday cake. mmg penuh la pantry tuh cram evry1 inside.. nseb bek sume dpt mkn.. lenkali kte msk lebeh ok? haha..

lastly, nk ckp rupe2nye da nk blk msia da pon. cuti pendek je, tp ckup la nk lepaskn rindu kt sme bnde malaysia. Malaysia..oh tanah airku...~ n mcm xsempat je nk shoppg(khas utk maliq), tp sy akan cr mse la..sbbnye tetbe kne buat assignment bio utk nekkan markah jd A.. huhu..nk dptkn A pny psl, sggpkn aje..

pics of the week:

nur adlina diyana 11 january 1990

the birthday pizza

the penyoraks

the birthday girl with her present

ashley, tjin & li-shan practicing for the bday performance.. :)

p.s: tetbe terse cam i've lost my "blogging" touch..boring sket r post ni