cara melayan anak.

oh makcik, anda belum berkahwin, bagaimana pula anda sudah berfikir cara melayan anak? tsk tsk tsk. matilah

i'm so ready to be a mum. yes. all i want is to have a family on my own. i know its going to be hard, and full of problems. yet, i'm not afraid, cos the love and happiness that I'll have will suffice and make me forget the hardships.

nowadays many parents are treating their child with too much love. haha. if the child wants this/that, then he/she'll get it. no way. don't do that all the time. the child would end up being a stubborn and spoilt human being. lol

i think its all about discipline and tolerance. and parents have to be the best example. yesterday someone gave tazkirah saying that, only if the root is strong, will the plant be flourishing. and the opposite goes to a root that is already ruined (refer surah Ibrahim ayat 24-26). we have to teach moral values from the beginning. don't force them, just nurture it.

#morethanayearago

setahun lebih dah. gasak.

i feel like writing again. writing down my feelings. dah lama tak emo terhadap dunia. kalau luah fisikal orang tak layan. baik aku luah digital (heh betul ke penggunaan?) whatever lah ni blog guaaa. okey see u when i'm emo again

lyrical honesty

this is a song by Sheila on 7

#Perfect Time#

tonight is the perfect time
pack my things and try
remember all the words that went bad

these hands you should hold
this heart you should keep
let the stars above us replace all the falling tears

would it be better if we were never near
knowing you more has always been my fear
let’s say goodbye to find a better place
before it’s too late

there is always a way for love
but sometimes not on the same road
dreaming is the only land fit for you and me

yang part highlighted tu, hmm memang selalu yang aku rasakan. kan lebih baik, kalau kita tak pernah mengenal sesama sendiri. takdir menemukan kita, tapi takdir juga memisahkan kita. ecewahh jiwang nina. motip sangat. 

nina, awak dah berjaya melupakan dia dan mematikan perasaan terhadap dia kan. walaupun dia selalu online chat facebook, awak tak tekan nama dia dan bagi salam pun. ya mesti ada yang geram cakap tegur je lah apa salahnya, tapi bukan awak yang merasa apa yang saya rasakan. mesti ada juga yang ngomel kenapa tak buang je dari senarai kawan. tak boleh, sebab kita memang berkawan. putus komunikasi bukan bermakna putus kawan. dan bukan juga bermakna aku masih mengharap. okey mengharaplah sikit. cukuplah setakat itu je. kalau dah bukan jodoh, kita diamkan aje ya. 

how i miss the months of June and July

ya rabbi. i read my previous post where there's a lot of pics and i, became sad and kangen (rindu, longing). it has only been 2 weeks plus, but i've missed the place where i've been living with my 21 other 'brothers and sisters'. yes, aku anggap mereka keluarga. susah senang, kita dah lalui bersama,kan? oi indah sangatlah kenangan kita. pagi-pagi jam 4.30 *erm terbabas selalu je* bangun subuh, wajib kejutkan Ovin, sang imam yang setia. Novie pasti akan ikut terbangun sekali, light sleeper i guess. D pun setia jadi teman makmum. hee. Kemudian bangunkan yang lain. Kamar Beautiful dan Kamar Cantik. adui liat sangat nak bangun tapi bila Ren-chan dah bangun dengan rambut menggerbang dan buat aksi menghantu dia, memang terus hilang rasa lelah nak kejutkan satu-satu. Anak-anak cowok, alarm kuat gila satu rumah bergegar tapi memang penat betul sampai tak dapat bangun. Dewiz okeylah..dia selalu jadi makmum lelaki. bagus2.

pukul 7 pagi...ramai dah bangun, beratur nak basuh baju tepi kolam ikan dan cop baldi untuk rendam. waktu ni paling best untuk mandi dan basuh baju, walaupun tahap kesejukan air dan sekeliling cam harem. biasalah, atas gunung kan. kenapa best? sebab tak ramai yang sanggup dan air masih banyak. mandi dan basuh lah dengan penuh tawakal. biarlah tangan beku sambil mulut keluar asap. janji settle. selalu je orang yang tak sanggup tu terpaksa tumpang mandi rumah warga desa sebab air mati. *padan muka lol* tak payah sebut nama lah..segan nyah! haha

waktu ni jugak kena cepat masak2 untuk sarapan. ye lah 22 perut serumah...kalau tak masak cepat ada juga yang terguling-guling atau masak mi segera untuk isi perut dulu. kat sini masak nasi special sikit..kena pakai pengukus.. selama ni tugas Anah masak nasi..sebab dia pandai..sampai kitorang panggil dia Ibu Nasi..so first time nak buat sendiri tu,cuba la masak nasi lemak konon nak buat hidangan Malaysia..alhasil nasi lemak lembik. sambal pun main hentam je sebab diorang tak biasa guna cili kering dan takde blender. tapi mereka sangat manis dan baik hati, mereka cakap sedap dan siap mintak resepi. hilang lagi rasa lelah. alhamdulillah :) mana tak sayang kat diorang? haishhh.

okeylah sambung nanti ye. tulis panjang2 pun korang bosan. dedaaa selamat menyambut ramadhan dengan penuh istiqamah~

somewhere only WE know. :)

*click on the images for better view. yes, do click!

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand 

I felt the earth beneath my feet

 Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone? 

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

 So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

 I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

 This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?

Somewhere only we know

*a village in Garut, Indonesia.

so this is the place where i'm gonna stay from 25th June till 25th July 2011. its lovely, the people are lovely. and i met lovely friends, strangers at first, but it gets better day by day :) i'm glad i went for the survey that day. we had lots of fun and laughter, and hopefully, we'll have even more later. p/s: since i'm going away for a month, expect no new updates from me anytime soon. don't miss me too much! love, nina :)

saying goodbye is never easy

be it giving somebody away for marriage, loved one's passing away, or a friend searching for a better future somewhere far.

the thought of not being able to see them once again, makes the heart aches wildly, and it cringes every time you remember the memories and shared experiences that we had with them before. sometimes, we even avoid the places that can bring back those memories. something caught in your throat, tears held back before the eyes, heartbeats going erratic. 

what makes it worse is that you don't know what the future holds. will we ever meet again? will they do just fine over there? will they be just another distant memory that would slowly be erased by time? 

there's just too much goodbyes I've bid this past few years. crying won't solve anything. accepting needs time. i hope someday i can find the strength to move on. as spirited as i can be, i'm still frail deep inside.

p/s: going to be in "no-mood" mood this coming few days. i can't wait to go home soon. i miss my family so much. 

yesternight, there was a mild quake

but i did not felt it. i was sound asleep, like a baby.
Praise be to Allah for keeping me safe and sound until i opened my eyes again for Subuh prayers.

i only knew about the quake after friends started updating their status on Facebook.
and this made me ponder:

what if the quake didn't stop, and the Earth swallowed me inside while i was still fast asleep?
what if i never woke up from the slumber, until the Day of Resurrection?
what if i haven't completed my duties towards Allah for that day?

so many ifs that can't be answered by human minds.

so friends, while you are still breathing, while you still have the pleasure of time, make a conversation with Allah, be closer to Him. Do everything that you think can cleanse yourself of the past wrongdoings, and increase your belief in Him.

are we using our time in this world wisely? are we ready for the 'real' world hereafter?

and also, whenever's possible, think of the things that surrounds us. take ibrah from what's happening. wallahualam

moral dari buku

let it go. don't think too much about the person u're gonna spend your life with. or the person u hoped u'll spend your life with. restrict yourself from contacting unnecessarily. this will only lead to dreaming and hoping of something that might not come to reality. free yourself from this uncertainty. dating, coupling, holding hands, doing more than syara' allows, these acts doesn't prove anything if it is still uncertain.

"oh i love you, will you be my girlfriend/boyfriend?"
"oh you make me smile everyday, may i take this picture of us, cheek to cheek, as a memory?"

you know what, these acts does not make you one step closer to being together. cause you just don't know about fate and future. no one have a clue. only Allah knows. so when you think you're doing something to prove your love and to prove that you'll be together forever, you're just lying to yourself. and if the relationship doesn't end well, you'll start to think of these acts that you've done...you might feel regretful, or you might feel betrayed and hurt. if only you didn't start any of this. and when things starts to go wrong, people will start to blame God, who in the first place, already said "don't do it". shame on you, people.

mungkin sebab itu dalam Islam, kita tak boleh berhubungan dengan insan bukan muhrim, kalau tidak ada urusan. sebab Allah tahu, manusia tu lemah,saling memerlukan, dan perbezaan kita membuatkan kita tertarik sesama sendiri. dan anda mesti selalu dengar perkataan ini "cinta pertama adalah cinta yang terindah" apa salahnya cinta pertama itu kekal indah selama-lamanya? Allah tahu yang terbaik untuk kita. :)

takut takut

worldwide disasters are creeping up on us one by one. the latest, tsunami in japan, from what i heard, is the biggest yet. yes, from what i heard. i don't have the courage to watch the videos and read the news articles. to not knowing, doesn't mean that i don't care. i'm just too afraid.

it is true then, that the End is coming. it is so near, i don't know what i should do. i don't know what would happen. i don't think there is enough prayers and good deeds in the world that i can do to promise me an entry pass to Paradise. i'm not afraid of death, i'm just afraid of the 'seksaan'.

i.feel.lost.

i can't wait to be in Heaven. yet i don't want to even enter Hell for a second. cukuplah membaca deskripsi neraka dalam alQuran untuk membuat aku berasa lemah. ya Allah, i'm sorry for every mistakes that i have done and words that i shouldn't be uttering. ya Allah, please have mercy on us. tolonglah tolonglah tolonglah ya Allah yang Maha Pengampun dan Maha Menerima Taubat.

mengambil ibrah dari seekor charlie

rove beetle atau lebih dikenali sebagai Charlie, semakin menunjukkan kehadirannya dikalangan teman-teman seuniversiti saya di Indonesia ini. Alhamdulillah, sepanjang pengenalan saya dengan Charlie ini dari waktu kolej matrikulasi melalui kata-kata sahabat handai (sekolah menengah belajar kat bandar, maka tak pernah menghadapi serangga pelik2 ni), saya tak pernah diserang (tapi langit tak selalu cerah haha)

badannya kecil sahaja, bahkan lebih halus dari semut biasa, tapi penangannya tak dapat dinafikan. sedar-sedar sahaja, teman saya datang ke kelas dengan parut yang lain macam. dikira jerawat, tetapi berdasarkan kehadiran vesikel nanah, saya bertanya apakah ia sebenarnya Charlie. Diagnosa Charlie telah disahkan oleh ibu teman, seorang doktor. hehe

okeh teruskan dengan ibrah. anda mesti pelik, apa yang kita boleh ambil dari serangga yang menakutkan ini? 

bayangkan, jika Charlie ini datang menghampiri anda, seboleh-bolehnya anda ingin membunuhnya sebab takut digigit bukan? jangan kata Charlie, nyamuk atau lalat juga anda dah bersedia untuk bagi tamparan wanita. tapi bagi kes Charlie, seelok-eloknya, jangan kita hancurkan badannya, sebab toksin akan terkeluar apabila badannya bercerai berai. seelok-eloknya, disapu jauh atau dilekatkan pada pita pelekat dan dibuang serta merta, dan doa agar Allah lindungi kita darinya.

sekarang, bandingkan Charlie dengan masalah hidup. tak semua masalah kita dapat selesaikan, banteras, pecahkan. kadang-kadang, kita perlu menerima bahawa masalah itu sebaik-baiknya diketepikan, mengalah sahajalah, redha, demi kebaikan semua dan masa depan. walaupun masalah itu boleh dianggap remeh, tapi sebelum berbuat apa-apa, kita fikirkan kesannya. contoh: kalau ada seorang teman meminjam wang kita, tetapi masih belum dibayar. beliau beriya-iya mengatakan sudah terlunas. kita ada 2 pilihan: a)halalkan sahaja, dan terima kemungkinan bahawa kita yang pelupa. b) tunjuk bahan bukti, ajak teman-teman yang menjadi saksi, dan mengungkit semula.

dari pilihan a) teman tersebut pasti akan merasa segan dengan kita (selalunya lah) dan kita juga dapat mengekalkan hubungan ukhwah.apalah sangat duit. duit boleh dicari lagi kan?

dari pilihan b) pula, hasilnya teman akan merasa tersinggung kerana anda perbesarkan hal yang dapat ditangani dengan mudah, dan beliau tidak akan mempercayai kita lagi. dia juga berasa malu dan akhirnya menjauhkan diri dari kita. kan?

jadi, kita nak pilih yang mana? nak sapu Charlie sahaja dengan satu sapuan pantas? atau nak tenyeh2 Charlie itu dan bersedia menghadapi risiko toksinnya? jawapan ditangan anda.jangan biarkan diri anda diselubungi Charlie~

dah lama tak jadi samseng

dulu waktu kanak-kanak, aku seorang yang ganas. kuat marah, kuat guna kekerasan. tapi aku tak sampai tahap membuli. okeh mungkin aku membuli secara lisan, tapi mulut laser masuk ke dalam kategori membuli? tak kan...

lepas aku dah mula masuk sekolah menengah, aku berubah menjadi lebih ayu *muntah*. aku doa tak putus-putus waktu pergi umrah pertama kali. insiden yang buat aku terdetik nak berubah bila mak aku menangis senyap-senyap sebab kecil hati dengan aku (aku tak tanya, tapi itu yang aku agak). kenapalah jahat sangat aku sebagai anak?*menyesal* haish... tapi alhamdulillah, itu semua dah berubah, walaupun tak banyak, tapi aku lebih menghargai ibu bapa aku dan orang sekeliling. aku cuba merendah diri dan menghormati semua orang. walaupun dia lebih muda dari aku. dan aku juga berdoa, untuk aku kurang bercakap, sebab apa yang aku cakap selalu salah. aku teringat mural kat sekolah menengah yang bunyi lebih kurang macam ni "lebih baik berdiam diri dari berkata-kata yang tidak berfaedah". aku hadam banyak kali. mendalam sungguh maknanya.

tapi dalam hidup, walau macam mana pun kita cuba nak elak dari marah, memang akan terlepas lah satu atau dua kali. susah nak kawal. rasa lemah gila lepas tu.

alkisah tadi training volley..aku pula bukan atlet langsung. tak pernah main sukan. first time main bola tampar yang serius. selama ni main sambut dalam bulatan je. pastu bila ada manusia yang macam lagi hebat, dah main bertahun-tahun, aku mula rasa kurang yakin dengan diri sendiri. tapi bila dia dah berlagak dan anggap kita macam bodoh *aku rasa sebab aku macam minah skema tadi yang blur2 gitu*... apa lagi, aku dah mula membayangkan aksi-aksi tarik menarik rambut tampar menampar. nasib bayangkan aje. kalau buat betul-betul mau kecoh satu kampung *aku duduk dalam kawasan kampung* dan aku luahkan je kat kawan-kawan aku. tapi aku rasa, kalau aku tak cakap, lagi bagus kan? aku patut biarkan je, tak simpan dalam hati. sekarang, aku kena kurangkan perasaan terasa, dan jangan berdendam. biarkan orang nak buat kita, kita lebih tahu siapa kita.

aku perlukan nasihat macam mana nak kawal emosi. selain dari mengaji please. tadi waktu mengaji pun tak dapat fokus sebab fikirkan sangat. *eh tapi bila istighfar banyak2 sebenarnya sangat berkesan, insyaAllah* okeh.sekian,terima kasih.

p/s: manusia sekarang memang dah hilang rasa hormat kat orang. sedih :(

mangsa yang rela. (oi ni fashion trend lah!)

spesis mangsa rela ni memang senang untuk dijumpai dimana-mana. sebelum aku menokok tambah, mai aku terangkan lagi.
mangsa rela yang saya maksudkan disini adalah mangsa rela berfesyen pelik demi mengikut 'trend'.

seribu simpati saya sampaikan kepada mereka yang telah menjadi mangsa rela ini. tapi maaf, saya tidak mampu menolong anda ke jalan yang benar, sebab anda yang memilih jalan itu.mungkin anda akan bilang "tapi Lady Gaga itu lagi pelik umangaih" tapi anda melakukan kesalahan disitu sebab anda meletakkan Lady Gaga sebagai batu pengukur. Selagi tak nampak macam Lady Gaga, selagi itu tak pelik, bagi anda. tsk tsk tsk

wahai mengkeme mengkeme(anda-anda) sekalian,

black dots and white spirals

.malukecilhatikecewahampalemah.

most nights, I stare blankly at the dark sky of  a ceiling and questioned myself: 

what am I doing here, all alone, far away from my loved ones? why do I choose to be here. 

why can't I be near to them. why should I be living on my own, in a room, with nothing but mere silence as a friend. 

and then, my heart hears a whisper: why not? U've always wanted freedom, and now's the chance. 

Hmm. I may look like an independent strong woman who everybody can rely on, but sincerely, I am in need of support too. Not many understand this.

kenapa harus ada cinta?

aku peliklah.
kenapa kita ada kecenderungan untuk ingin bercinta?
kenapa kita selalu rasa "kan best kalau ada peneman waktu suka duka segala"
aku pun tak tau dari mana datang idea-idea ni.
selama ni elok je bertahan layan perasaan sorang2.

lega :) and "apa ada pada Cinta?"

fuhh. although its not my problem to think about, but yes i'm really grateful that it turns out well.
now i can worry about something else. heee

sapa2 yang suka baca novel/cerpen melayu romantik, bolehlah berkunjung ke www.penulisan2u.my
particularly loved the short story entitled 'apa ada pada Cinta?'  quite a long short story (really contradicting,right?) but its really well written, i wasn't bored at all (eyes glued to the screen)

tak best lah!

apa yang tak best?
perasaan ni

perasaan apa?
perasaan tak dapat nak menghalang orang dari melakukan kesilapan

oh susah tu.
tu la susah gila. lagi-lagi bila kita sendiri tak yakin dengan outcome and result hasil perbincangan nanti

takpe, cuba je la dulu bila ada masa ok?
ermm insyaAllah, doakan aku ada keberanian ok untuk mengupas isu ini.

eceh kupas isu.
haha bongok la kau

timekaseh.
sesama :)

pesanan penaja: cakap dengan diri sendiri dapat mengelakkan dari bergosip dan mengumpat.

*bila kita tak dapat nak selamatkan orang, kenapa kita je yang rasa bersalah tapi orang tu lek je?*

oh what a day

• i started off early in the morning.by 7 something, i was already on the road, heading to sungai buloh. drove all the way, thankfully without a single headache. yet i hate the coldness of morning. not a morning person for sure.

• urghh.one of the appointments are lost somewhere/couldnt be traced. and the sister even dared to lecture me. i remembered specifically, it was you who made the appointment, but i resist myself from making a scene.took some blood, laughed(by my own, like a lunatic) at two kids who are perfect strangers, yet mimicked and played with each other like they're brothers and sisters. so cute and innocent! :))

• back in subang by 11 something. straight to maybank. made a new account. too much fuss. poor customer service, i'd say..assuming that the customers already know all the products available at the bank. and they aren't as friendly as how Malaysians always are who greets with a smile, and a simple "hi can i help u?".

• then, off to post office, where i sent two packages. disgusted amused by my own handwriting. how bad it turned out, even after 16 years of practice (sheesh i'm that old). and i can't renew my driving licence. the cards are out of stock! haha. damn u jpj.

• helped my mum to make kebab and macaroni soup for dinner, and mom was waayyy too excited with the delicacy of the day: torpedo/bull's testicle. yekk. i'll hang myself before daring myself to eat those crazyfood. well, farid said something, and made me want to try it, but no, i won't, yet, maybe. haha

well. i felt like an adult, doing all those chores in one day. usually it took me one day for each task to be completed. even if u guys don't feel the same/agree with me, all i can say is: I'm proud of myself. for being able to cope with those dreadful situations in a calm and ethical manner. other than being emo to my dad. well, that's another story. hah. the end.

lain dari yang lain

got this list from syam who got this from Datin Tiara Jacquelina. a'ah kan syam.. asal xde visiting Mekah n getting married in the list? so dis is my result:

1. Started your own blog

2. Slept under the stars

3. Played in a band(aduh nggak bisa. udah dicoba tapi kok bunyinya nggak masuk ya..)
4. Visited Hawaii and danced on a lava cliff with the roar of the Pacific below
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain(bukit byk.mountain..ermm)
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo(tidak. suare ku tidak mantap)

11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea( i think so but i cannot remember when)
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch

15. Adopted a child(i want toooo!)
16. Had food poisoning

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight

22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill to avoid taking the kids to school(i dont have kids yet, but i always pull a sickie :P)
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping(waktu kecik2 :p)
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse in a bucket of water 

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run in softball and rounders
32. Been on a cruise

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors(still waiting for the right time padahal da ade kat sini kot)

35. Seen an Amish community(ooo that would be interesting!)
36. Taught yourself a new language(indonesia boleh? i learned it through the art of trading and bargaining)
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant(think so.. tak igt sgt)
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business(kejap je kot)
58. Taken a martial arts class(taebo counts rite?)
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason [xpernah dpt bunga :'( ]
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year's Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox 

89. Saved someone’s life 

90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous outside of Malaysia
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

so i got 39. but yeah. the list is quite unrealisitic i might say. most of the things to do can only be done if u have loads of money. consider the less unfortunate lah.  to people out there who feel like having an adventure, i suggest you go out from ur room, and walk with ur instinct, not with ur head. u'll discover places and things in no time. and u dont really have to hop on a plane to have an adventure. there are lots of interesting stuff going on in places that we always neglect. and remember to follow ur instincts, dont hold urself back!

talam dua muka

or should i say talam banyak muka gila? i just freakingly realised that i have sooo many personality, ie multiple personality disorder. orang lain dok bipolar je kan, aku nih lebih dr dua beb. let me list them.. and here it goes:

1. the girl next door, who doesnt care if her face is all covered in ash, or she just stepped in a puddle.
2. trying to be pretty and dressing up all the time/jangok
3. a pondan/nyah, who yaps about everything, in a manly voice.
4. shopaholic devil(where i also seduces others to go n shop with me)
5. very stingy, even dares to buy the cheapest beras available.
6. materialistic and hoping for a sugar daddy anytime soon to buy all the cool stuffs for her
7. lazy bum who can live in a messy room and secretly stashes away the bad stuffs somewhere..
8. the one who cannot or stand to see anything laying around in places it should not belong to
9. the down-to-earth-do-good-all-the-time person
10. ah why bother. evil evil evil. nyahahah
11. wont-stop-writing-things-on-the-blog
12. do i have to open the blog now?
13. hopeless romantic yg terlebih hopeless
14. hati keras bak batu permata.(cewah)
15. joker and life of the party. (cewah kedua)
16. dull dan pudar and lame
17. do gooder and dare not to cross the lawful line.
18. i dont care what people say let's just get away with it.
19. always delaying things, always late.
20. arrived few minutes early and always checking the time why is the other person so late one.

houston, we have a problem.

tangisan berdarah&20 yg menghampakan

gmbr ni sesuai sgt dgn diri sy sbnrnye
luar nmpk gembira mcm clown, tpi dlm..

hurmm. harini saya menangis teruk
saya kecewa dengan sikap segolongan orang
tapi kite semua manusia
banyak buat silap
mari, bukalah mata, bukalah hati
cubalah tengok reaksi orang dan bagi respon sepatutnya(pesan kakak saya.timekasih kak)

nk mintk tolong sikit je dr semua orang x kira sape awk:
tolong jangan ada sifat selfish
tolong jangan take someone for granted
tolong jangan buat orang kecewa
tolong jangan layan orang tu macam orang asing padahal dah kenal dari sekolah rendah.

and tolong tunjuk yang awak sayangkan saya, dan bukan mempergunakan saya setiap masa

isi2penting:
1. mungkin tahun ni belum lagi tahun bertuah saya. pembukaannya dah hampeh. takpe.penghujungnya mungkin menarik. Allah da siap master plan utk kite semua.
2. selalu terasa left out atau alienated. siapa saya dalam hidup awak?
3. makin lama, hati makin tawar, makin xde perasaan. jangan sampai saya jadik total recluse.
4. puas da pujuk hati sendiri. bila nak ade org tlg pujukkn? Xp
6. taktau nape,org asyik gunakn sy dr dlu smpi skrg. nk kate baik sgt, sy xde la gitu skali.
5. birthday saya pergi camtu je. walaupun saya balik lmbt hr tu, xbermakna sy smbut bday dgn family dgn gempaknya, atau dgn kwn2 msia. (sy blk lmbt sbb kne gi hosp. its not that fun ok.and u still had the guts to laugh when i tell u abt all the pain that i've gone thru for that procedure.sheesh.thx a lot, FRIEND) truth is, xsambut pon.. n still, xkesah la if i did get a celebration. makan2 utk sy pon xde ke? everyones bday mesti ade sambut.knp aku x? suji pon ade ok. btw, thx mimi n jaja for the gifts.ade jgk org igt kt aku.


tah la. when it comes to certain ppl, they go all the way jz utk prepare suprise party utk kwn..xkesah la lmbt brp hari..atleast sambut..siap sggp travel jauh2. but for me, all i get are wishes(atleast dpt kn)kek pon kakak ak yg belikn. shame on u ppl! dah aku x menghrp. mmg da tiap thn cmni pon dr zmn skola dlu. who am i kidding?


tmbhn: Islam kan ajar kite utk sentiasa menjaga hubungan silaturrahim. even jiran pn kite kne treat nicely. sabar2 nina..biar ape org buat kt awk, jgn awk b'buat jht kpd mereka.

wow..amin! (eleh cubaan kecik cmni..xde efek sgt kot..ahaha)