waw dah lama kita tak bersua ya?

assalamualaikum, peace be upon you my sisters and brothers. ecehh

new update: i'm now doing my clinical works in Bandung, heyyy. got my first patient for removable denture today. my first time for everything. it is quite stressful due to many factors, direct and indirect. tapi nampak macam cerah je masa depan ni, so i'm not going to give up just yet. *eventhough i went home early today, a sign of giving up* i needed the time out, so that i can bounce back up again tomorrow, insyaAllah. thank goodness even though my doctor and senior don't think it's an easy case to handle, but the patient trusts in me and that's all that matters, actually. yeah, there were moments when i pictured myself just crying it out while talking to my mom, but i'm not going to do that just yet. don't want my mum to feel bad about it. *since i'd once said to my mom, this is her choice, not mine (yes i felt bad saying that)* i know momma's choice is the best, insyaAllah. takpe, dunia belum berakhir. buat apa nak risau. yang penting buat mak rasa gembira dapat pahala bro, one step closer to heaven woot2. which brings us to the second topic

gua homesick broooo. haha. its going to be my first time untuk 3 bulan straight tak balik rumah rasanya. tambah dengan stress, and my father's 60th birthday coming soon, it hurts so much not to be home and see my family. time-time ni lah rasa cam "oh kan best kalau belajar kat malaysia, dekat dengan rumah sikit" dah nina, enough is enough. dah nak masuk 4 tahun kat luar negara, takkan tak dapat terima hakikat lagi yang awak bukan belajar kat malaysia. tinggal setahun lebih je lagi, so shut up, tighten up, and go all out. dulu nak sangat menjelajah kan? kuikuikui.

last update: please please please try to watch walking dead, the new series about world infested by zombies and this group of people trying to survive from being eaten/bitten alive. the 2nd season just started. and the 1st season is only of 6 episodes. its a good show. or i might be too obsessed with the zombie concept due to this one experience of playing Left for Dead, sampai tak nak balik rumah. haha. noob nina.

ok la tu je. curhat again later. dedaa.

what do you give to your parents?

after all they have sacrificed. after all the money they have spent on us. recently, i heard that the amount of money that is used to bring up a child can be up to half a million dollars. that's only for one. what if there's more?

when i was younger, i loved watching Mercedes Benz. maybe its because i don't really know any other brands, except proton, which i can get confused with,too. and when the first time i saw an E200 on the road, i instantly love the design and the headlights that looked like the eyes of a grasshopper. so one day, i said to my parents, when i grow up, i'll get them this car.

now, i'm almost 22, and still having 2.5 years in school, and my parents are reaching their 60's soon. now, i'm not sure if they want the car anymore. they already have their own cars, their own house, their own assets. and its time for them to relax and enjoy their moments after years of toiling. maybe, when i'm already working, i should get them a private chauffeur, but i think they would prefer going out with their own children. i don't think they would want another car or house. 'cause they don't need it. they're perfectly content with what they've already achieved. maybe i can sponsor their Hajj and Umrah trips. yes, that would do. you know what, i will ask them what they personally want. even though somehow i feel that they would say they don't need anything.  parents, they always give give give, but expects very little from us. that's love. <3 love your parents.

p/s: coming up is Mother's day on 8th May! wish them, make them feel special :)