waw dah lama kita tak bersua ya?

assalamualaikum, peace be upon you my sisters and brothers. ecehh

new update: i'm now doing my clinical works in Bandung, heyyy. got my first patient for removable denture today. my first time for everything. it is quite stressful due to many factors, direct and indirect. tapi nampak macam cerah je masa depan ni, so i'm not going to give up just yet. *eventhough i went home early today, a sign of giving up* i needed the time out, so that i can bounce back up again tomorrow, insyaAllah. thank goodness even though my doctor and senior don't think it's an easy case to handle, but the patient trusts in me and that's all that matters, actually. yeah, there were moments when i pictured myself just crying it out while talking to my mom, but i'm not going to do that just yet. don't want my mum to feel bad about it. *since i'd once said to my mom, this is her choice, not mine (yes i felt bad saying that)* i know momma's choice is the best, insyaAllah. takpe, dunia belum berakhir. buat apa nak risau. yang penting buat mak rasa gembira dapat pahala bro, one step closer to heaven woot2. which brings us to the second topic

gua homesick broooo. haha. its going to be my first time untuk 3 bulan straight tak balik rumah rasanya. tambah dengan stress, and my father's 60th birthday coming soon, it hurts so much not to be home and see my family. time-time ni lah rasa cam "oh kan best kalau belajar kat malaysia, dekat dengan rumah sikit" dah nina, enough is enough. dah nak masuk 4 tahun kat luar negara, takkan tak dapat terima hakikat lagi yang awak bukan belajar kat malaysia. tinggal setahun lebih je lagi, so shut up, tighten up, and go all out. dulu nak sangat menjelajah kan? kuikuikui.

last update: please please please try to watch walking dead, the new series about world infested by zombies and this group of people trying to survive from being eaten/bitten alive. the 2nd season just started. and the 1st season is only of 6 episodes. its a good show. or i might be too obsessed with the zombie concept due to this one experience of playing Left for Dead, sampai tak nak balik rumah. haha. noob nina.

ok la tu je. curhat again later. dedaa.

lyrical honesty

this is a song by Sheila on 7

#Perfect Time#

tonight is the perfect time
pack my things and try
remember all the words that went bad

these hands you should hold
this heart you should keep
let the stars above us replace all the falling tears

would it be better if we were never near
knowing you more has always been my fear
let’s say goodbye to find a better place
before it’s too late

there is always a way for love
but sometimes not on the same road
dreaming is the only land fit for you and me

yang part highlighted tu, hmm memang selalu yang aku rasakan. kan lebih baik, kalau kita tak pernah mengenal sesama sendiri. takdir menemukan kita, tapi takdir juga memisahkan kita. ecewahh jiwang nina. motip sangat. 

nina, awak dah berjaya melupakan dia dan mematikan perasaan terhadap dia kan. walaupun dia selalu online chat facebook, awak tak tekan nama dia dan bagi salam pun. ya mesti ada yang geram cakap tegur je lah apa salahnya, tapi bukan awak yang merasa apa yang saya rasakan. mesti ada juga yang ngomel kenapa tak buang je dari senarai kawan. tak boleh, sebab kita memang berkawan. putus komunikasi bukan bermakna putus kawan. dan bukan juga bermakna aku masih mengharap. okey mengharaplah sikit. cukuplah setakat itu je. kalau dah bukan jodoh, kita diamkan aje ya. 

a blogger and a new (last!) block in 6th semester

today, on the way to my campus today for a cancelled class *huhh*, i saw a banner about some book fair going on. there's also going to be a movie review and music carnival as well from 2nd - 5th of May '11. another feature that excites me is there's going to be a seminar from my favourite blogger-turned-author/comedian, Raditya Dika, on 4th of May. he's an Indonesian who writes about his day-to-day mis-adventures and quirky incidences. i haven't being following him for a long time, but I've read most of his books. really loved the way he writes, very descriptive and alive. i could replay all the scenes in my head vividly, as i read his books, chapter by chapter. so yeah, i'm excited to see him, if i'm given the chance.

next week there's one final exam, and also the start of a new block on public health. yukk. i don't like the subject. very boring and its about ethics. i'm an ethical person, mind you, but these are things that we've already learned throughout life. and another thing that made me wince was that during the first lecture, the doctor told us to make a choice: between doing masters degree on what you love, or, something that ensures you of having a lot of patients. i know she's only thinking about our future, but i don't want to make money for things that i'm not passionate about. that's against my principles. you don't want to end up being old and unhappy with what you're doing every day. and god forbids, feeling regretful. and hey, i thought we were learning about ethics. is it ethical to be money-minded instead of being true to yourself? think think.