black dots and white spirals

.malukecilhatikecewahampalemah.

most nights, I stare blankly at the dark sky of  a ceiling and questioned myself: 

what am I doing here, all alone, far away from my loved ones? why do I choose to be here. 

why can't I be near to them. why should I be living on my own, in a room, with nothing but mere silence as a friend. 

and then, my heart hears a whisper: why not? U've always wanted freedom, and now's the chance. 

Hmm. I may look like an independent strong woman who everybody can rely on, but sincerely, I am in need of support too. Not many understand this.

a letter to juliet

*Imagine I'm in verona, sitting on a bench, in front of Juliet's balcony*

dear Juliet,

I know you're just a fictitious character created by William Shakespeare, yet...

me and my "special" disorder

ok, so a friend of mine (Miza) made a suggestion:

"haha..ko nk wt list bp pjg? meh2 aku tlg..nt bwk pen ngan ketas bla bla toot toot"

b4 that:

"thanks. ak tpakse admit la.. mesti rse ak ni gatal gle. Nme pn desperate.. haha.. *Satu,seduit,faizaltahir,jerung(sket2),seseorang,senior futsal aritu..Lg2?"

actually, i was feeling frustrated with my disorder where i fall for men easily. or it might be infatuation. i don't know. i'm just confused. and i'm still frustrated with it, mind u.

so tomorrow, i'll list down all the names of men that i have once liked or even 'ter'liked.

and i'll post the results tomorrow. don't expect real names.

please be aware that it'll be quite a long list.

and if u have a diagnosis for my disease, please share it with me. i need remedy, immediately!
*names have been changed for personal reasons*

this is too funny

its not really clear why, but it feels like its too much and i just want to say: Please stop..

i know i said some thing and i confessed my heart's desire.

but really, i'd moved on when i've come to know of the fact and truth.

to those who knew it well enough and keep saying "give it a try",

i know you guys care, and just being a good friend.

but, i have moved on. sincerely.

i didnt even blush anymore. and that's a huge thing since i blush easily.
(my friends termed it as mentomat)

so now, lets bygones be bygones.

i'm doing great with what i already have :) (thanks maliq)

xbahagia ke muke nih? :D

i'm not alone

i'd like to start sumtg new with a good impression..but..not this time.ok..new life chapter,new blog,new look on life,and new perspective on love. love can be shitty. especially when u at first, hv troubles being near that person..who looked all scary to u,u just wish u were sumwhere else. and then, nearing the end, u realised, wat a sweet guy, and how cool he is when he talks to u..u'll start to get all mushy and giggly, that's where u need to stop.quick.yet, i only learn the trick recently.which i'd love to blame others for not foreseeing it for me, yet it shud be noones fault i'm a sucker for sweet-talking bad ass. let me pour on it sum other time. now, i hv to sleep on it first. its just too soon for me to indulge further on all the despise i feel at this minute. i hope u'll hv fun reading my blog. and it might be another cliche blog, but who cares? just read on..and before i stop..this is how the author looks like:

p.s:don't worry,i'm sane.