cara melayan anak.

oh makcik, anda belum berkahwin, bagaimana pula anda sudah berfikir cara melayan anak? tsk tsk tsk. matilah

i'm so ready to be a mum. yes. all i want is to have a family on my own. i know its going to be hard, and full of problems. yet, i'm not afraid, cos the love and happiness that I'll have will suffice and make me forget the hardships.

nowadays many parents are treating their child with too much love. haha. if the child wants this/that, then he/she'll get it. no way. don't do that all the time. the child would end up being a stubborn and spoilt human being. lol

i think its all about discipline and tolerance. and parents have to be the best example. yesterday someone gave tazkirah saying that, only if the root is strong, will the plant be flourishing. and the opposite goes to a root that is already ruined (refer surah Ibrahim ayat 24-26). we have to teach moral values from the beginning. don't force them, just nurture it.

#morethanayearago

waw dah lama kita tak bersua ya?

assalamualaikum, peace be upon you my sisters and brothers. ecehh

new update: i'm now doing my clinical works in Bandung, heyyy. got my first patient for removable denture today. my first time for everything. it is quite stressful due to many factors, direct and indirect. tapi nampak macam cerah je masa depan ni, so i'm not going to give up just yet. *eventhough i went home early today, a sign of giving up* i needed the time out, so that i can bounce back up again tomorrow, insyaAllah. thank goodness even though my doctor and senior don't think it's an easy case to handle, but the patient trusts in me and that's all that matters, actually. yeah, there were moments when i pictured myself just crying it out while talking to my mom, but i'm not going to do that just yet. don't want my mum to feel bad about it. *since i'd once said to my mom, this is her choice, not mine (yes i felt bad saying that)* i know momma's choice is the best, insyaAllah. takpe, dunia belum berakhir. buat apa nak risau. yang penting buat mak rasa gembira dapat pahala bro, one step closer to heaven woot2. which brings us to the second topic

gua homesick broooo. haha. its going to be my first time untuk 3 bulan straight tak balik rumah rasanya. tambah dengan stress, and my father's 60th birthday coming soon, it hurts so much not to be home and see my family. time-time ni lah rasa cam "oh kan best kalau belajar kat malaysia, dekat dengan rumah sikit" dah nina, enough is enough. dah nak masuk 4 tahun kat luar negara, takkan tak dapat terima hakikat lagi yang awak bukan belajar kat malaysia. tinggal setahun lebih je lagi, so shut up, tighten up, and go all out. dulu nak sangat menjelajah kan? kuikuikui.

last update: please please please try to watch walking dead, the new series about world infested by zombies and this group of people trying to survive from being eaten/bitten alive. the 2nd season just started. and the 1st season is only of 6 episodes. its a good show. or i might be too obsessed with the zombie concept due to this one experience of playing Left for Dead, sampai tak nak balik rumah. haha. noob nina.

ok la tu je. curhat again later. dedaa.

how i miss the months of June and July

ya rabbi. i read my previous post where there's a lot of pics and i, became sad and kangen (rindu, longing). it has only been 2 weeks plus, but i've missed the place where i've been living with my 21 other 'brothers and sisters'. yes, aku anggap mereka keluarga. susah senang, kita dah lalui bersama,kan? oi indah sangatlah kenangan kita. pagi-pagi jam 4.30 *erm terbabas selalu je* bangun subuh, wajib kejutkan Ovin, sang imam yang setia. Novie pasti akan ikut terbangun sekali, light sleeper i guess. D pun setia jadi teman makmum. hee. Kemudian bangunkan yang lain. Kamar Beautiful dan Kamar Cantik. adui liat sangat nak bangun tapi bila Ren-chan dah bangun dengan rambut menggerbang dan buat aksi menghantu dia, memang terus hilang rasa lelah nak kejutkan satu-satu. Anak-anak cowok, alarm kuat gila satu rumah bergegar tapi memang penat betul sampai tak dapat bangun. Dewiz okeylah..dia selalu jadi makmum lelaki. bagus2.

pukul 7 pagi...ramai dah bangun, beratur nak basuh baju tepi kolam ikan dan cop baldi untuk rendam. waktu ni paling best untuk mandi dan basuh baju, walaupun tahap kesejukan air dan sekeliling cam harem. biasalah, atas gunung kan. kenapa best? sebab tak ramai yang sanggup dan air masih banyak. mandi dan basuh lah dengan penuh tawakal. biarlah tangan beku sambil mulut keluar asap. janji settle. selalu je orang yang tak sanggup tu terpaksa tumpang mandi rumah warga desa sebab air mati. *padan muka lol* tak payah sebut nama lah..segan nyah! haha

waktu ni jugak kena cepat masak2 untuk sarapan. ye lah 22 perut serumah...kalau tak masak cepat ada juga yang terguling-guling atau masak mi segera untuk isi perut dulu. kat sini masak nasi special sikit..kena pakai pengukus.. selama ni tugas Anah masak nasi..sebab dia pandai..sampai kitorang panggil dia Ibu Nasi..so first time nak buat sendiri tu,cuba la masak nasi lemak konon nak buat hidangan Malaysia..alhasil nasi lemak lembik. sambal pun main hentam je sebab diorang tak biasa guna cili kering dan takde blender. tapi mereka sangat manis dan baik hati, mereka cakap sedap dan siap mintak resepi. hilang lagi rasa lelah. alhamdulillah :) mana tak sayang kat diorang? haishhh.

okeylah sambung nanti ye. tulis panjang2 pun korang bosan. dedaaa selamat menyambut ramadhan dengan penuh istiqamah~

June-August updates.

Early June - finals exams and finishing lab. bye semester 6~

Mid June - family reunion in Port Dickson. hope that i can make it. its going to be a great weekend!

Late June - KKN(kerja kuliah nyata) or field work in Garut. for a month. with 21 (+ 2 house resident) other people. in a house with 2 rooms and 2 toilets. oh no! i'm so getting equipped with sleeping bag,camping bag and lots of wet wipes. huhu. its gonna be adventure tho, and the place is beautifully picturesque. i'm up for it!

Late July - end of KKN, moving closer to main campus, and waiting news if minor thesis titles are accepted and if we can go home for the 2 week holidays

Early August - start of new semester (7th), (it was supposed to be in september dammit!) and, atleast a new home! weee :) plus the preparation programme for clinicals. can't wait to have patients. hopefully we (my classmates and me) can all finish our requirements and minor thesis early and graduate at the same time. amin! pray for us! and also, Ramadhan, or the fasting month for muslims. It also seems like i have to celebrate my 1st of Syawal or Hari Raya Aidilfitri in Indonesia... for the first time. i'm so not going to listen to those nostalgic songs. lol. deleting it soon. haha.

what do you give to your parents?

after all they have sacrificed. after all the money they have spent on us. recently, i heard that the amount of money that is used to bring up a child can be up to half a million dollars. that's only for one. what if there's more?

when i was younger, i loved watching Mercedes Benz. maybe its because i don't really know any other brands, except proton, which i can get confused with,too. and when the first time i saw an E200 on the road, i instantly love the design and the headlights that looked like the eyes of a grasshopper. so one day, i said to my parents, when i grow up, i'll get them this car.

now, i'm almost 22, and still having 2.5 years in school, and my parents are reaching their 60's soon. now, i'm not sure if they want the car anymore. they already have their own cars, their own house, their own assets. and its time for them to relax and enjoy their moments after years of toiling. maybe, when i'm already working, i should get them a private chauffeur, but i think they would prefer going out with their own children. i don't think they would want another car or house. 'cause they don't need it. they're perfectly content with what they've already achieved. maybe i can sponsor their Hajj and Umrah trips. yes, that would do. you know what, i will ask them what they personally want. even though somehow i feel that they would say they don't need anything.  parents, they always give give give, but expects very little from us. that's love. <3 love your parents.

p/s: coming up is Mother's day on 8th May! wish them, make them feel special :)

inferiority complex

is it true that guys feel inferior towards girls who comes from a well-off family? and that feeling makes it a lot difficult for them to approach the said girls. aww shucks. its not necessary, you know, to feel that way... unfortunately, this is what's happening in typical Malay society.

who cares about how much money you have in your bank account?
we just care about the way you spend it, wisely or lavishly.

who cares what vehicle you're using?
we just want to see if you took the effort to make sure we feel comfortable on it.

who cares what fashion label you're wearing?
heck, we're more attracted to men wearing simple clean white jubah, or baju melayu with sampin and songkok. or for me, just wearing plain checkered sarung with tshirt. hahaha.

who cares about the way you look?
as long as you can give us much attention, and be there when we need you the most. and be funny,too.

who cares. who cares.

so do not despair, oh men. do not feel like you're unworthy just because you don't have what she have. you just need some charm, and a lot of willpower. a woman's heart is like a flower. sturdy enough to withstand raindrops, but blooms lustrously in the presence of warm sun shining upon it. yes, we need a man who can warmly shine us with their charisma and thoughtfulness.

don't prepare thousands of ringgit as maskahwin, or diamond rings, or fancy hantaran, if you're just gonna be in debt afterwards. yang penting, suami isteri dan anak cukup makan, boleh beli baju baru 2 kali setahun, lepas yuran sekolah, dan kereta selesa *okay kalau ada anak harus ada kereta. atleast a wira(contoh je), please. u don't want to burden or endanger you family's lives kan? it's just too dangerous to ride pillion. lain la kalau nak dating pusing taman waktu petang, bawak pun 20km/j. haha. yang itu tak apa* LOL

just be yourself. be honest with yourself first, then you'll find an honest woman that suits you and loves you for who you are, not what you own. renung-renungkan, dan selamat beramal~

saying goodbye is never easy

be it giving somebody away for marriage, loved one's passing away, or a friend searching for a better future somewhere far.

the thought of not being able to see them once again, makes the heart aches wildly, and it cringes every time you remember the memories and shared experiences that we had with them before. sometimes, we even avoid the places that can bring back those memories. something caught in your throat, tears held back before the eyes, heartbeats going erratic. 

what makes it worse is that you don't know what the future holds. will we ever meet again? will they do just fine over there? will they be just another distant memory that would slowly be erased by time? 

there's just too much goodbyes I've bid this past few years. crying won't solve anything. accepting needs time. i hope someday i can find the strength to move on. as spirited as i can be, i'm still frail deep inside.

p/s: going to be in "no-mood" mood this coming few days. i can't wait to go home soon. i miss my family so much. 

kurr kurr *bunyi orang panggil ayam*

sejak balik malaysia ni, rasa macam tak berhenti-henti je pokpek pokpek.. ye laa kat bandung nak cakap dengan sape? kiri kanan depan belakang dinding semata2.

*lebih kurang macam ni la gaya saya bila di bandung*

balik malaysia, terus tak habis2 buat lawak spastik,beraksi badut dan cerita segala pengalaman. lama agaknya diperam..ahaha

dalam diam, rupa2nya baru saya sedar, betapa saya suka sangat akan perhatian. ahah! kuang3.. dan bila saya tengah syok berkata2, tapi tak mendapat respon, (bercakap sensorang), mula la saya mengeluarkan bunyik "kurrr kurrr". saje nak perli orang yang tengah berbual dengan saya. hohoho. mak saya lagi kejam, kalau orang tak layan dia tengah berbual, nanti dia bermonolog "tembok..oh...tembok" konon-konon macam tengah cakap dengan dinding.

*tembok..oh..tembok..saya cakap dengan awak je la. orang belakang ni malas nak cakap dengan saya*

balik ni juga, baru saya sedar yang, patutlah mulut saya agak penuh sindiran tajam. satu keluarga pun sama je perangai. dah la rajin menyindir, suka buat lawak loyar buruk lak tu. tiap kali buat lawak syok sendiri/loyar buruk, kena bayar seringgit. agak2 dalam seminggu, boleh dapat beratus2 jugak la. haih naseb baik la keluarga, kalau tak...hahah

*wang besar..wang besar...!*

apa-apa pun, saya gembira sungguh dapat balik Malaysia tanah air tercinta, dan dapat berjumpa kawan-kawan rapat saya :)



p/s:   Malaysia panas.. nasib baik ada aircond...ahaha gedik sungguh
p/s2: biar warok muka, jangan warok perangai. saya malu dengan sikap segelintir masyarakat. huh
p/s3: esok nak pergi hospital.. mintak-mintak dapat ambil darah dengan senang. serik tangan lebam-lebam.
p/s4: nak pergi Kota Kinabalu, dan Melaka, insyaAllah. moga2 dipermudahkan segala urusan :D weehoo!

mama oh mama..

Puan Samsiah Bt. Hamidon, my hero(ine), inspiration and idol.

i dedicate this post to my lovely mom. noone can replace u lah ma!

tengah2 mlm..wktu tgh bosan belajar..tetibe terase nk tulis ni..

on 21st march, something happened, and it made me missed my mum a lot! i called my mum soon after, and i cried my hearts out, but all the time, i tried keeping a cool voice..i didnt want her to be worried..

ma,

i wanted to say a lot, but u weren't feeling well. that made me cried harder. when all the time i was praying that u'll be fine and in top shape back home, u told me u just got home from the hospital. u felt dizzy and the doctor said ur blood pressure fluctuates, that's why. i tried sending u message afterwards confessing about my love for u, for the first time in my life, but it was undelivered twice, and i thought, maybe its not meant to be. maybe i should prepare myself to speak those words,vocally.ma, i remembered the moment when u called me when i was sleeping comfortably in my bed..

it was subuh, and u wanted to perform ur prayer..u cried, "naa, tolong mama.. mama xleh bangun.." i jumped to my feet at once, and thank god i didnt panic. i went straight downstairs and helped to knock down the door to ur room. when i realised i dont have the strength, i woke up everyone and asked for help. that time, panic struck me. my mouth didnt stop praying to Allah that u'll be fine.. when we made it into ur room, i quickly went to ur side and asked what happened. u were complaining of feeling like on a roller coaster ride whenever u move, and it made u feel sick, u want to vomit. i'm glad ma, that u asked for my help then. it made me realise how much love i had for u that was hiding inside of me. all day, i didnt want to leave ur side, preparing myself for the worse. i worried,terribly.

hari tu, bila mama gi physiotherapy kat hospital sg buluh, nina gembira tgk mama.. mama x mengeluh langsung kan penat ke sakit ke kaki sume. mama senyum je tiap masa. mama sempat bergurau lagi dengan nina. buat muke gedik sume..haha

mama, i love u. i wish i'm there for u always. how are you coping,ma? bintang, pelukkan mama saya dengan seindah2 sinaran dlm kegelapan malam.. matahari, bercahayalah cemerlang untuk mama saya. awan, beraraklah meneduh mama saya supaya dia x kepanasan dan mula pening2. angin, bertiup riang ye, saya nak mama saya rase nyaman sentiasa.

ma, nina rindu nak tolong mama masak, nak tolong mama kt klinik,nk teman mama gi hospital, nak tengok wajah kepuasan kebahagiaan mama bila mama tgk nina minat nk belajar jd dentist mcm mama.plg nina rindu, nak sambut tgn mama ble mama penat nk jalan or turun naik tangga, sbb sakit lutut. mmg da tunggu je kot..sje nk pgg tgn mama :P

hrpn nina skrg, nina nak tengok mama goyang kaki je someday. biar nina je buat sume keje, and mama rileks. nina xsabar sgt nk tunggu da abes bljr n keje sndri, biar nina bole jaga mama n papa. bia nina penat, janji nina puas tgk mama bahagia. xsggp lagi dgr keluhan dr mama,walaupun mama x berniat untuk tunjukkan sebab nina tau mama ikhlas buat sume ni. keluhan penat tu pasti bukti nina xjlnkan tugas nina sebagai anak, kan? menyesal selama ni nina x amek kesah sgt psl mama penat ke x. nina rindu duduk ngan mama tiap mase. waktu kt rmh pon, xsabar2 nk tggu time utk msk sbb nk tlg mama siapkn dinner. kalau bole nak je take over sume keje, tp xreti lagi..ehehe.. and nina harap sgt mama sempat tunggu nina graduate and kawin and ada anak. Ya Allah, jagalah ibu bapaku sebagaimana mereka telah menjaga diriku..amin ya rabbal alamin.

Ma, take care. love u always. <3

tgk mak saya..penat2 pon comel je. die mmg cmni..senget sket..haha

p.s: nk tulis pjg lgi psl mama saya..tapi sy xrase ckup blog ni. mungkin kne buat autobiografi khas..wakaka..