unexpected

why is it unexpected?
it is because, for the first time in my life,
i think i like this chapter.

1.moving on letting go
i even had a video of him. unexpectedly today, i deleted it
and it was on impulse.
yes maybe i've thought about it the day before
and i watched the thing more than once
but really, i didnt remember myself thinking about it
i was too preoccupied with my studies :) wow!

2. i love studying, at long last!
unexpectedly, i'm starting to love dentistry
before, i felt i'm forced into it
at one glance of these names: microbiology, parasitology, pathology, dental material..
my knees went weak. i dont know if i could handle it at all.
yet now i realized, these subjects are actually fun!
wow!

3. i learn to prioritise
after a few days of delaying and being a lazybum,
i snapped myself into realizing that i need to do something with my life right this moment
coz time won't wait..
and now i'm planning my schedules
and doing my assignments earlier than i'd normally would
again unexpectedly, i force myself to "lupekan" the intentions to futsal, and instead i choose to do my assignments. wow!

nina xmain2 da. nina serius nih. dan saye akan belajar utk dapatkan scholar mara, dan saye akan kawen dgn millionaire. (eh?)

4. still..
i need to focus on searching for a new goal! balik2 i'll be saying that i wanna be married to a pious man. oh God, is that all to it? i'm not created exclusively to end up marrying someone.
i need to achieve something that could make me stand out and stand proud. ngee. i want people to acknowledge me as Dr. Nina.. not Polan's wife.titik.

sekian, salam.