mama oh mama..

Puan Samsiah Bt. Hamidon, my hero(ine), inspiration and idol.

i dedicate this post to my lovely mom. noone can replace u lah ma!

tengah2 mlm..wktu tgh bosan belajar..tetibe terase nk tulis ni..

on 21st march, something happened, and it made me missed my mum a lot! i called my mum soon after, and i cried my hearts out, but all the time, i tried keeping a cool voice..i didnt want her to be worried..

ma,

i wanted to say a lot, but u weren't feeling well. that made me cried harder. when all the time i was praying that u'll be fine and in top shape back home, u told me u just got home from the hospital. u felt dizzy and the doctor said ur blood pressure fluctuates, that's why. i tried sending u message afterwards confessing about my love for u, for the first time in my life, but it was undelivered twice, and i thought, maybe its not meant to be. maybe i should prepare myself to speak those words,vocally.ma, i remembered the moment when u called me when i was sleeping comfortably in my bed..

it was subuh, and u wanted to perform ur prayer..u cried, "naa, tolong mama.. mama xleh bangun.." i jumped to my feet at once, and thank god i didnt panic. i went straight downstairs and helped to knock down the door to ur room. when i realised i dont have the strength, i woke up everyone and asked for help. that time, panic struck me. my mouth didnt stop praying to Allah that u'll be fine.. when we made it into ur room, i quickly went to ur side and asked what happened. u were complaining of feeling like on a roller coaster ride whenever u move, and it made u feel sick, u want to vomit. i'm glad ma, that u asked for my help then. it made me realise how much love i had for u that was hiding inside of me. all day, i didnt want to leave ur side, preparing myself for the worse. i worried,terribly.

hari tu, bila mama gi physiotherapy kat hospital sg buluh, nina gembira tgk mama.. mama x mengeluh langsung kan penat ke sakit ke kaki sume. mama senyum je tiap masa. mama sempat bergurau lagi dengan nina. buat muke gedik sume..haha

mama, i love u. i wish i'm there for u always. how are you coping,ma? bintang, pelukkan mama saya dengan seindah2 sinaran dlm kegelapan malam.. matahari, bercahayalah cemerlang untuk mama saya. awan, beraraklah meneduh mama saya supaya dia x kepanasan dan mula pening2. angin, bertiup riang ye, saya nak mama saya rase nyaman sentiasa.

ma, nina rindu nak tolong mama masak, nak tolong mama kt klinik,nk teman mama gi hospital, nak tengok wajah kepuasan kebahagiaan mama bila mama tgk nina minat nk belajar jd dentist mcm mama.plg nina rindu, nak sambut tgn mama ble mama penat nk jalan or turun naik tangga, sbb sakit lutut. mmg da tunggu je kot..sje nk pgg tgn mama :P

hrpn nina skrg, nina nak tengok mama goyang kaki je someday. biar nina je buat sume keje, and mama rileks. nina xsabar sgt nk tunggu da abes bljr n keje sndri, biar nina bole jaga mama n papa. bia nina penat, janji nina puas tgk mama bahagia. xsggp lagi dgr keluhan dr mama,walaupun mama x berniat untuk tunjukkan sebab nina tau mama ikhlas buat sume ni. keluhan penat tu pasti bukti nina xjlnkan tugas nina sebagai anak, kan? menyesal selama ni nina x amek kesah sgt psl mama penat ke x. nina rindu duduk ngan mama tiap mase. waktu kt rmh pon, xsabar2 nk tggu time utk msk sbb nk tlg mama siapkn dinner. kalau bole nak je take over sume keje, tp xreti lagi..ehehe.. and nina harap sgt mama sempat tunggu nina graduate and kawin and ada anak. Ya Allah, jagalah ibu bapaku sebagaimana mereka telah menjaga diriku..amin ya rabbal alamin.

Ma, take care. love u always. <3

tgk mak saya..penat2 pon comel je. die mmg cmni..senget sket..haha

p.s: nk tulis pjg lgi psl mama saya..tapi sy xrase ckup blog ni. mungkin kne buat autobiografi khas..wakaka..