sumpah tak tipu. aku sedar okeh. and i hate it so much because I'll feel all embarrassed and wanna hide under the table or behind anyone. and I physically can't since I'm too tall for that (tak nak ngaku gemuk la kan. tak sedar diri betul). i wanna make silly faces, and sing monotonous songs with a manly voice, in peace. boleh tak?
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diorang tenung sebab nak suruh aku diam kot. ahaks. nasib la wrong timing...
oh yes another thing i realized is that i tend to assume things quickly. so all those feelings and all those emotions that i've poured into this blog, i think it is solely driven by assumptions. i think i'm going through mild episodes of delusion and hallucination.
So, now i've known that i'm having those disorders, it must mean that i'm slowly coming back to reality,right? all i want to do is go back to square one. living the simple life i once lived, to be without constant jittering and nervousness. i wanna be crazy and silly again. i hope this simple wish of mine, comes true soon.
i wanna stop thinking too much, stop worrying about what others think, and stop worrying about my surroundings. i wanna have a "don't know don't care" attitude. well just some of it will be enough.
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